ELLO MAYTESS

fruitcake.

i'm doing the 365 thing where you take a picture of yourself everyday for a year. or like, a picture of something you did that day. i forgot to take a picture yesterday i just realized. now i'm fucked. why can't anything ever go right in my life?!

Shorty Wanna Be A Thug

Alright, well I finally figured out how to transfer my cellphone pictures onto my pc. I feel quite accomplished! Haha.
I daresay these past two days have been filled with more excitement than in my entire two week vacation! It's pitiful, but true. I was downtown with my friend Danielle on Friday and we went to the Andy Warhol exhibit and educated ourselves a little bit more on the iconic pop artist - who I blindly idolized, up until now. By that I mean that he's not really all that. He's just an artist who worked mostly with silkscreen and got cozy with all the celebs. I don't know what the big fuss was.
However, nonetheless I did purchase a mini print of the Campbell's soup thing. It was only one dollar! Plus tax! ...I couldn't resist.
So we walked around on St Catherine street, tried on some sailor outfits in Urban Behavior, paid a dollar to get a massage from those chairs in the Eaton Center, metroed around town... It was all around an excellent day :) Then on Saturday I had my friends Alannah and Lauren over and we went skating and watched OTH and Seven Pounds (cry). It was good tttttimes.
Now it's Sunday and we have our first day back at school tomorrow and my stomach sinks everytime I think about it.
I wanna do something productive today but at the same time I don't.
My dad finally gave me my much anticipated allowance for the last like 4852 months, so I'm once again quite comfortable in the financial department - yay.

Okay, maybe I'll draw something new. Or else just plop down on the couch and watch some OTH :)

DERRREEEEEKKKKK

HAPPY TWO FOUZAND ND NYNEE!!11

Currently listening to Bella's Lullaby on repeat. Possibly my favourite piano song ever? Okay maybe not ever, but it's definitely excellent. I succumbed to the hype of Twilight last night... I feel ashamed. I promised I wouldn't give in, because I was a die-hard fan of Harry Potter! But I was momentarily misguided! It wasn't my fault! My dad had it in the public file on my computer! It was right there in front of me! I couldn't help myself! Anyway, it's a new year so we can leave that all in the past...

So another year has gone by and I don't feel any different. Actually that's not true; I feel worse. I feel like I did nothing this year. I'm a mess. Things that I would have thought would have gone well imploded and now, if possible, I'm worse off than I was in 2007. I could've done without 2008 entirely. Okay, maybe I'm over-exaggerating. Point is, I feel like shit.

Last night was okay, despite the fact that I ditched a party to stay home with my family...
But that turned out to be okay! We stayed in, had some chinese takeout, a couple glasses of spiked cranberry juice and watched Bedtime Stories. The movie was over just in time for the annual Dick Clark New Year's countdown so we watched that; hugs and kisses all around, and then everyone went their separate ways.
I stayed up only a little bit longer, and only now have I realized that we at NO JUNK at all whatsoever. Wow. That's weird? Because my mom bought all this stuff and we had brownies and everything... and we didn't touch any of it??? Strange.
You'd think a resolution for eating less junk would now be in order in light of this discovery, but no. I'm headed for the kitchen right now to make up for last night's uncharacteristic behaviour!
LATER DAWGS. Have a happy January 1st.

I hope everyone's nights were filled with drunken debauchery and unexpected but wonderful kisses at midnight! And well, if you were like me and spent your new year's ever at home in your sweats; just know that the majority of us were! According to Ryan Seacrest, only 1% of people were actually out at parties last night! ... or something like that.

Stay focused when nothing seemed to make sense

It's a Tuesday on the second (and last) week of Christmas break. I'm bored of it. I want to go back to school to avoid sitting at home immersed in my own - sometimes frightening - thoughts.
And by frightening, I don't mean like Sixth Sense frightening. I've just been thinking a lot about life and it's importance lately. Why am I here? Why do I go to school? Yeah, if I finish my education I'll get a job and move out and move on, but then what? Life is mundane. Nothing is new. Everyone knows what's coming. There's an expected path that everyone is to take and we all know it and accept it willingly.
It's interesting. Everyone knows they're going to live for under a century (except for the few Guinness World Book of Records champs at 130 years old. Cool - live for an extra 30 years). My point is, we all get born and then die. It's a fact, and yet people still have such passion! Maybe I'm just at a low point in my life because I can be pretty passionate. It's just these past two weeks seem to be filled with depression. I'm bored! And not even because there's nothing to do; that's the scary part.
I'm bored because I figure, what's the point in me doing anything?!

I need to be back in school where I can be kept busy all the time so I don't have the opportunity to sit around and think up shit like this. Seriously.